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Boxing day :>

2011-12-26T13:11:00.001+08:00

Happy Boxing Day everyone! (doubt there'll be anyone reading it anyway lol)

This year's Christmas was boring. Except for the Christmas eve BBQ gathering, there wasn't any special programs. Like I said, Singapore is so not a country to celebrate Christmas!

I wanna go to some caucasian countries again, it's been way too long since I went to these places. And this time it'll be different cos both my sis and I can drive! Say yay to self-drive!

Last night, we had our Christmas dinner at Ichiban Sushi! Had this hotpot thingy set and awesome chawanmushi hmm.

Okay gonna end abruptly. Goodbye!

2011-10-28T23:59:00.001+08:00

Yep, our 2.5 months of holidays is gonna end in like 2 days.

And so, to sum this holiday up, it's really fruitless HAHAH. I still didn't manage to pack my utterly messy room. :( okay needa sleep now, got work tmrw!

2011-09-23T02:18:00.001+08:00

Thank god for the blogger app for iPhone. Otherwise I think I'll leave this place stagnant forever. Moreover, I doubt anyone still read this space over here cos it has been left untouched for sucha long time.

Many things changed.
People die, friends came and left, time wasted, and more. But most importantly, I think I'm too used to people entering and leaving my life that I longer know how I feel and how I should feel. It's weird, and no doubt about it, I'm devastated. But is there anything I can do to stop them from leaving? I was prolly the one who drove them away in the first place.

Me. What more can I say?

2011-09-14T16:11:00.001+08:00

A ghostly picture of me.

Life's a journey.

2011-04-23T12:06:00.003+08:00

And after 10 grueling weeks of acting busy, we finally ended our industrial attachment on the 21st April, just 2 days back!

It was indeed an eye opener, and definitely, there are bound to pros and cons of anything. But im really glad everything's over now.

I will miss everyone and everything there! And i kinda regret taking so little pictures on the last day..cos i know we will never get to meet up!

2011-03-15T11:08:00.001+08:00

A bouquet of roses will be nice...

2011-01-25T23:38:00.009+08:00

Wow. Im truly amazed that i actually attempted to login to my blogger. Must less to say blog.
Oh well. Its the year 2011 already! Time flies isnt it!

Im officially off for attachment on the 14 February, which also happens to be on St. Valentines Day! But it doesnt matter, so long i get paid. Teeheehee!

Alright and now i shall draft out a list of things that i need to save up for! But i'll always end up using most of my money on food.

Dupe Slippers in Pink! Oh come to mama.

Sperry Boat Shoes.
After considering this for the longest time ever, i still want it!

A red Eastpak.

Benefit "that gal".

nuabs sandals, which i think im getting it by this week?

Manhattan Portage Dakota Backpack

Prime lens for my camera.

Gosh, thats quite a number of things i must save up to get ):
But its okay! I think this will be constantly updated as my wants gets more and more!
Disgusted at myself.

Okay bye!

Broken.

2010-11-06T01:52:00.003+08:00

I feel extremely upset that my life's in such a mess.

School had started and its the fourth week of returning back to the books already. Sorry for neglecting my blog! I really had no time, and was really lazy. Zero for effort.

And ever since dad left, mum relied on us like she've never did before. I had to sacrifice so much of my me-time to accompany her to places, just in hope that she'll feel a bit better mentally. But i wonder how long more can i sustain.

That aside, the stress level im experiencing now regarding schoolwork is humongous. I'm actually praying very hard that mum will continue to take her pills, so that she wont give me or anyone anymore additional problems.

Oh yeah, come to think of it, i wondered how i endured that 9 weeks of Cheers attachment. It wasnt fun at all, i swear. But it was indeed a great experience.

Yeah, i got the most horrid tutor ever again. How unlucky can i get. I wonder how am i going to survive through this semester.

I've got several photos to upload, but the SD card got stolen away by my sister. But then come to think of it, if you're really interested, you can always go to facebook!

Another major thing that happened recently was that, i got selected into the school team to play for Pol-ite.

Well, not exactly selected into the team i guess. But i was lucky, i was in the team that was sent to play. (: I swear i was so happy i teared, like yes again. I need to seriously adjust the settings of my tear glands. Way too active.

It was indeed surreal. Thank you mummy for coming down to support me for..2 matches! <3

Needless to say, i know my face is in an extremely bad state now. It started around July this year, i seriously dont know what happened. My body's as screwed as my body. My cheeks used to be flawless and rosy, well i said used to. But not its not. I dont think it'll ever return it to the old state. Hate myself for look so ugly now.

Not only that, my hair's totally screwed too.

I really wondered what happened to my life.

God gave me two good things, yet he took away a million and one things away from me the moment i got it. I know life's never fair. But i think the mathematics's kinda screwed here.

Com'on i seriously need a break. I need some good things to happen.
I need miracles.
I need the fireworks to happen.

):

2010-09-28T13:34:00.004+08:00

I've got so many thoughts in my frigging big head that i dont know what to say and i couldnt be bothered to express myself either.

Yesterday was the day i officially felt sick and tired of rugby. "Maybe its time to go" thats what i told Angelia.

Then, i started to catch a lot of balls. I started to be fast. Even then, I was intimidated by my own speed and the ability to catch those balls. I knew i was merely lucky.

I'm not gifted.

Check out my pig trotters.

In addition, i cant wait for my TEP attachment to end. 2 weeks and 4 days more, and i just got to endure.

I cant wait to go overseas with my mummy and smelly sister. I cant wait to be doing what i like, to wear what i want. And i cant wait to be me.

The day i wore a dress, the day i met my new cousin-in-law for the very first time. Weird much, so near yet so far, so close yet so distant.

PS: my mum insisted on taking this picture.

Okay bye, another abrupt end.

2010-09-08T00:29:00.002+08:00

Teamwork.

I finally truly understood the real meaning of teamwork, and how hard it is to bring everyone with different mindsets, goals and character together.

It is almost impossible.

Seriously, how can anyone bring a team together if the team doesn't want to cooperate.

It boils down to the simplest thing which is the attendance. The difference in the number of juniors left on field now compared to the start of the semester was huge.
I don't even know where the rest went.

As for the rest..

Furthermore, i dont know why the fuck am i so affected about this entire cca thing. I should have just have the same mindset, come and go as i like. I could have left, but i didn't because you guys encouraged me to stay on. I doubt anyone remembers.

But i realised, i am growing up as the days past. And in no time, i'm turning 21. The start of adulthood. I must be responsible for my own actions and decisions.

Competition's in about a month's time.

Do you we still have time to wait for fate to decide if he wanna bring our team together?

2010-08-26T18:27:00.004+08:00

Heh, the other day i couldnt find my thumbdrive! So me being utterly act-cute, i went to Google it.

I nearly forgot about the Yellow Ribbon Run the next coming weekend. Its my first ever run! And i hope its not the last?

I used to think my stamina is alright, able to take long distance, fast paced workouts. But i was wrong. Yesterday's training made me breathless and i pant like a sick dog. Yucks. Before i can even take a breather, i need to pass out the ball already.

Alright, shall not think so much about it and go collect my race pack first!
Should we really run or just walk leisurely? The venue's really awesome! And i'm so excited to tie my Yellow Shoelaces to show my support!

But the downside of it is that we need to get up at a super unearthly hour. ):
Chauffeur me anyone?

ANYWAY, my cousin is getting married this coming 20th October. Like act cute only what the date. So cliche omg!

AND, i've been grinding and using up all my brain juice to come up with an ideal excuse not to go.

ITS ONLY ROM WHAT.

MOREOVER, i truly dislike his wife. Pleh, roll eyes, whatever i can think of.

BUT, my mum educated me well. So i shall be a slightly more demure and understanding girl. I will give my aunty and uncle face, BY SHOWING MY FACE ON THAT DAY ITSELF.

Oh well, provided theres no POL-ITE match!

I can be the camera man again yaw. Its okay.

Ah fuck, im being childish but i cant be bothered.

2010-08-20T23:39:00.007+08:00

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA WELCOME YOU ALL WITH MY CONSTIPATED FACE!

Oh my. Hello bloggie, its been ages since i last update you. Nyehehe, but i'm back now.

Its really a rather busy semester for me, as im currently having my TEP. However, something to be happy about is that i'm currently at my last stopover!
I think i'm quite unlucky or should i say lucky? I am not sure about that. I got into the call centre for 9 weeks of full shift, and now i'm attached to Cheers for another 9 weeks. Sigh, honestly, life like this, there is nothing to look forward to.

I feel extremely insecure without a supervisor in the store to watch over us. The entire Cheers is run by students! So scary. I mean theres a supervisor, but she seldom pops by? I dont know.

The above one is my favorite picture of the lot! Thats Tiffany, and she's from Clementi ITE as well!

Pictures for the last day at call centre! I honestly gained a lot of weight over the nine weeks. No joke.

Alright.
I just asked Papa if he will miss me when he's gone. And he said he will.
Wtf, i'm seriously damn weak in this and i'm starting to cry again. I cannot take it.
I used to hate him so much (me and my sis literally blamed my mum for marrying him wahahahha!), and then i started to get used to the times whereby he's gone for overseas projects.

Quite happy actually.

But soon he'll be leaving us for good.
Fuck.
Fuck.
Fuck, seriously.

Why is it always be this way? When you lose it then you'll know how to treasure it.
This lesson is too much for me to take.

2010-08-02T15:13:00.002+08:00

Ooh, her birks like dope only! Apparently Singapore doesnt have this style?
K i'm contemplating if i should buy the three-striped one. But i've got like three pairs already.
Should i, should i not.

Wanted to buy my Sperry just now, but i'm kinda lazy.
I sort of wasted an entire off day today.
And back to reality tomorrow. If only i can sleep till this late every morning.

2010-08-01T23:35:00.002+08:00

I better type out what happened today otherwise i'll just forget.

Alright, woke up damn bloody early on a sunday morning for BFT. It is my virgin experience and i must say its not a pleasant one.

I was super, super, super bad. I didnt know what was i doing throughout the entire thing.

I've got zero pictures because i forgot to bring my camera out today.

Okay back some other day, i need to do my report.

2010-07-25T01:14:00.006+08:00

Hi, my new nickname shall be Chubbcheeks.

I think life's been good, which explains the double chin, chubby cheeks, tummy, fatty arms and thighs that are multiplying itself like bacteria.

I've been snacking a lot.

Like literally a lot.

It is actually strictly no food allowed in the Call Centre, but you know, rules are meant to be broken, and everyone else is eating inside.

Yesterday i was damn mean. Kelly was absent, but she left a pack of chocolates on her desk. So me being very nice, decided to help her finish it up, in case some cockroaches decided to eat.
Why be nice to cockroaches right! Anyway its been left there for a night already. It'll be worst to leave it over the weekends.

Excuses.

Outside CC1 after games day! Alright i didnt know its, "Your Call Centre".

Anyway i think i've got mental block already. Just yesterday, i wanted to consult my supervisor about some excel stuffs, and i actually said, " XXX, i want to insult you about something."

UH HUH. Insult instead of consult.
DIE VIVIEN CHUBBCHEEKS.

Girlies!My partner in crime (:

Fuck my breakouts! Didnt issue me any warning and it all just came up like that.

Urgh, truckload of reports undone.
Shit this.
Sucks to be me, honestly.

2010-07-21T09:15:00.013+08:00

Hello sweet earthlings!
I'm currently doing my personal selling for my tep module.
I'll appreciate it if you could help me by buying something?

Its okay if you dont! So dont feel forced yea :D
I've got Frolick vouchers, Koi Bubble Tea vouchers, Famous Amos Cookies and more!

So, do scroll down and have a look!

Do email me at lt.vivie@gmail.com for any enquiries or to place an order!

Thank you!

2010-07-18T14:17:00.005+08:00

My world evolves around school, family and rugby(:
I love my teammates. I love my call mates too!

T rugby team bonding camp @ nyp 18 July 2010.

Initially i really contemplating if i should attend, cos i've got crmcc girls outing on the same day itself! Really secretly hope i can divide myself into two!
But you know, since i've already decided to go for the bonding camp, i feel that its my responsibility to enjoy every single moment and efforts of the organizer (: Really got to appreciate what others do for you.

And so, we played captain's ball, pin the spongbob's nose spinning game, hokey pokey, chop chilli chop, 7-up, charade, lie-on-the-power-ranger-mat game and had pizzaaaaaa session!

Coach's birthday on wednesday, 14 July 2010.
Grace went to buy 23 cupcakes for coach's mini surprise birthday celebration.
And in order to be fair, we had a cupcake chase! Cos theres only 2 chocolate cupcakes and apparently many of them wants chocolate?

Youth in Touch on 10 July 2010, pictures refuses to load.
Cuts and grazes, big blue black, unhappiness, 100 plus, gummies and more.

2010-07-05T14:37:00.004+08:00

I'm feeling really PMS-sy today. Everything is just bad. I'm aching all over, andthe chair i'm currently sitting on, really doesnt help a single bit.

Hahaha.

7.5 hours spent on this chair, in this room, in front of this computer, facing the scripts and etc.

Just finished doing the powerpoint slides, and the report. I hate it.

Everyone's currently making calls, whereas ours will be in tomorrow.

then we've got presentation this friday. Ah! Stage fright.

2010-06-24T21:09:00.003+08:00

I think, i am never ever going to say i want to quit rugby.
I will just have that thought, and then shut up.
I dont wish to be called an attention seeker, you know.

But i really cant help but to feel depressed about it, sometimes.

Actually i think i'm quite pathetic.
I dont seem to have a real bff. All my friends are busy with their own work and school. And i'm left all alone. I hate to feel like this, and i am so afraid to know that i am forgotton, or being left out.

I know im thinking too much. But im really not. I guess, in my life of 20years, there are far too many people who abandoned me. Therefore im like that?

Im weak and sensitive. Thats me.

2010-06-23T11:50:00.000+08:00

Utterly sad and dissapointed.
Thanks for being so not understanding at all.

2010-06-18T23:43:00.004+08:00

End of first week for stopover two, which means, another 8 weeks more.
Oh god, the daily routine of 9am-5.30pm is seriously taking a toll on me.
I cant believe i actually fell deep asleep on the train home yesterday.
Nobody take train with me to wake me up! ))):
Every night, if there isnt training, i'll just drop dead on the bed at 8pm. EARLY RIGHT.

And who says its fun and stress-free over there!
There seems to be tonnes of things and steps to take note of, and to complete.
Its terrible, well cos im such a lazy person, i hate to think, and work.

Hands-on, mind's on, hearts-on, mouths-on, eyes-on. NONSTOP.
Oh well. At least there are two15mins break, and an hour lunch break.

These are some of the pictures taken! See my cui face you know how shag this is.

):

Moreover, i'm like gaining weight over there. After lunch will be back to sitting down. And we munch on gummies/sweets/snacks like non stop, oh, not forgetting coin dozer.

2010-06-13T01:08:00.002+08:00

FürrMUSE ‘J’ Tote Bag.

First of the 9 part series ‘Homage’ Tote bag that will eventually form up a complete artwork.

Tell me this is too cool.

2010-06-10T02:13:00.003+08:00

Talk shit, get hit.
Alright, im attempting to talk shit, so that i'll get hit, no.

I'm starting to lose myself, altogether again. I dont know why, but i get lost in directions easily. And no, you lecturing me doesnt help a wee bit, i swear.

You'll just be bringing my already low morale, to an entire whole new ground level.

): Upset, upset, upsetting shit.

I just got cuts and grazes on my knees and legs, i dont know why its so painful. But somehow i like it, meant i put in some effort to dive? Uhm.

Anyways, i'll be starting my full shift attachment at the call centre like on monday.

Gosh, its when the others are starting their holidays! Then the school will be cold, empty and quiet! How to love it you tell me?

Oh well. If only all goes well.

2010-06-04T23:35:00.006+08:00

Yay, i'm back from the mini gathering we had just now.
Dinner at Astons, oh gosh what a long wait.
But i think time passes faster when theres more people. :D

hello my team, i really love all of you.

Anyway, Beatrice brought her camera along today. So the camera woman of the day is her! I've only got two pictures, whereby i think its redundant to upload lor.

The mad sewer at work, making felt plushies for my team mates. This is batch two. Haha, and nope G and L. Its not what you think.

I painstakingly sewn that ipod nano for Agacia cos she was feeling really upset, just wanna cheer her up a little. And now Beatrice is demanding for a BB! HAHAHA! Madness seriously!

" I want it exactly the same hor, with the buttons, keys and all."

-

And these are photos i found in my camera!
Last day of classical.
Anyway, is that even the correct term? "Classical." Sounds very weird and inappropriate to me.

And i like how tan i look! Hehe, the week after All Schools.

Some random shots by friend! I think its either she's checking out my tan, or the thing on my elbow.

Alrighty, gotta go rush batch 3 plushies now! I forgot what colour the girls wanted. Errrr :/

I think my skills of hiding away all my unhappiness is getting better. Way to go Vivien! Show the world the happy you (:

2010-06-03T20:32:00.007+08:00

MY 3D SPONGEBOB JIBBIT :D

Hello little earthlings reading my blog :D

After much procrastination, i've finally collected my BEEFY TEE this afternoon at King Albert's Mcdonalds.

Well, if only i've got a car. I will try buying macs from the drive thru. I love driving you know. Ah, but its okay!

There! My BEEFY TEE! M was the smallest size that was available.

Oh well, i think somehow i look like i'm pregnant with a quarter pounder. Eh, the background effects not bad right!

Was talking to boonkiat about his taiwan trip.

HAHAHHAHAHHA.

I CANNOT TAKE IT. CLIMB MOUNTAIN WITH RADIO SET.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

OMG LAH. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, DAMN FUNNY IF YOU IMAGINE!!

2010-06-03T02:09:00.002+08:00

ARENT THIS GOOD? AWW.

WAH, I CANNOT STAND IT. EVERY WEBSITE I GO TO, I SEE "A LEOPARD NEVER CHANGES ITS SPOTS."
OMG, THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT IVE BEEN THINKING FOR THIS PAST FEW WEEKS!

2010-06-01T22:30:00.005+08:00

SO HIDEOUS OMG HAHAHAHAHHAHA. SEE MY HAMSTER FAT CHEEKS.
THIS WAS SOME WEEKS AGO BEFORE I CUT MY FRINGE AGAIN. <3>
Hell, this is yet another roller coaster ride. I hate this type of politics going on in a group or team.

But the fact, is the fact.

Its upsetting me.

Its intimidating me.

I dont like it.

Anyway, went to see a chinese physician this morning to have my scalp treated. I cant afford to lose anymore hair luh.

And there is a 150 capsule chinese herb medicine. Well, its supposed to improve my..i dont know what body condition. The doctor said i was very weak.

Haha, no wonder always no strength or so lazy. ):

Sigh. I'm going to end abruptly again.

Sometimes, if you know you cant bloody help or give good comments about anything. Just, stay away from my personal space.

Hehe, i would like a lumix GF1 too.

In fact, I'm really very very very upset. But i've decided not to talk about it anymore.

2010-05-31T22:30:00.005+08:00

Milo with Famous Amos. This combination is just the bomb, and the killer too. It just meant that today's training was totally wasted. HAHA.

Meet Popcorn. Nacho's sister. Neh, jolene. You've got pokpok here.

I'm feeling really really utterly depressed. I'm going bald. Bald bald bald. I cant take it anymore.
Nothing beats not having hair on your scalp. I just cried in front of my mum lor.

My parents are helpless.
I'm helpless.

K bye.

2010-05-30T16:03:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, i hate it when time passes by so quickly. Like, today.

Woke up at around 1pm this afternoon. Saw mummy's sulky face, guessed i know what happened.

Was called to go out to chill and catch butterflies rather last minute last night. Missed the last bus, had to cab over. Met this ridiculous cab driver, but he gave me 80cents discount. So okay lor.

Wasted an entire day at home today doing nothing. Could have gone shopping and done many constructive stuffs.

WJB left his ciggs over at my home, should have emptied the entire thing before returning him the box just now. Whatever.

STOP SMOKING PLEASE. DAMN SMELLY.

Shall go draft and cut some of the alphabet plushies now.

K end of ultimate random post.

Hello 999th.

2010-05-26T23:42:00.007+08:00

Just another entry before i officially hit the 1000 post count.

My toe hurts. Its badly injured already, yet i still kept inflicting more harm to it. Heart break toe, i fell sorry for you.
And now my other foot's toe also kinda screwed up.
On the way to gone case mode.
Anyway, i love my trusty camera. But then, i really really want a dslr too. Like who doesnt right.

Just the other day, sister discovered Annoying Orange in 3D. OMG 3D LEH. So she immediately rushed into her room, took out some box, opened it, and took this two piece of pathetic paper.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
I know its correct, com'on its science. But i dont see any 3D effects leh.

Some randomly picked pictures from just now. See my sexy tan? HAHA.

2010-05-25T22:13:00.003+08:00

I really want to pack up and leave this bloody hell space i've got. I dont want to constantly get all the shit that my mum is giving.
And because of all these shit that she's giving, my sis is consistently not at home, coming back home almost past 12 everyday.

She asks what time i need to go to school, what time i leave the house, what time i will be back etc.

I JUST HOPE I NEVER WILL HAVE TO COME BACK.

AND NOW SHE'S ATTEMPTING TO MOVE INTO MY ROOM.

NO.

I CANT TAKE IT WHEN SOMEONE INTRUDES INTO MY PERSONAL SPACE.

I've had enough.

Yesterday when i came home from school, my room was in a mess.

The pillows on the bed was not in the original place, it was scattered all over.

The fan was not on the cute little ikea stool. It was somewhere, and the stool was somewhere too.

TV controller on my bed.

My blankets all messed up.

All the mess on the floor.

I HATE IT WHEN ITS LIKE THAT. I HATE IT WHEN SOMEONE TOUCHES MY THINGS.

And the little actions she do now and then to annoy us, irritate us.

SIGH.

2010-05-21T12:12:00.004+08:00

This week's the project week, and without wasting any resources, i head down to school to do our project.
Sigh, but most of the time is spent on asking, what am i supposed to do. Haha.
Damn annoying one, cos i'm forever blur and i'm a follower, not a leader. But when i leads, HAHAHAHA. Alright, think too much.

Anyway why am i talking to myself. I dont even know what am i typing seriously.

I'm left all alone in the library now. So lonesome HAHAHA.

I just spent 15minutes of my life checking the box to delete my mails, just to realized that i kept clicking wrongly, and everything unchecks itself. Major pfft.

Stupid drey, nearly made me cry a sea of tears.

2010-05-19T21:31:00.002+08:00

TODAY MARKS THE FIRST, MY VIRGIN, MY VERY VERY FIRST TIME IN NOT ATTENDING TRAINING.
WELL COS I'M PISSED OFF WITH SOMEONE SO SERIOUSLY THAT I WANNA GO ON STRIKE.
(:

And then, i start to miss the girls.
Sigh.
I miss Jolene's pancake on the head, i miss Agacia and Yi Ting's so-damn-skinny-can-see-a-lot-of-veins legs and her ultimate cb face, i miss Lala, my ultimate sprinting partner and drey, the cute girl who kept saying she cant, sarah who just cannot stop sighing, and the rest lah.

What a bitchy feeling.

You know its really very hard to let go of something whereby you didn't stopped doing for one entire year. Its like, a bad habit already.
Even though i really hate the sprints, but i've already decided to just run, RUN WITH ALL MY MIGHT LOR. As if i've got a choice.

However, monday marks the day whereby i am officially pissed off.

AIYA ANYWAY I'LL BE BACK SOON.

2010-05-14T23:07:00.005+08:00

You know hor, i am damn materialistic.

Yup, i want these leh.

I'm still in the midst of trying to love myself more, for who i am, what i am and how i am.
I cant stand the fact that i am ridiculously fat lor, so disgusting.

And for the truth that i cant burn fat easily, cant shed off those fatty things no matter how hard i exercised. And there are so much more people who ate more unhealthily and yet still be so skinny.

Gosh, i'm so watchful of my diet that i dont eat chicken skin/fats, i eat vegetables and fruits, and even do squats when ive got nothing better to do. But why am i still so flabby.

I want nice legs, thin and lean arms.

Just look at her legs lor. I wouldnt mind mine if im taller, just a bit more.
Why, sad life just love to linger around me.

2010-05-11T21:18:00.006+08:00

Suffering from insomnia lately, entrance constantly not granted to dreamland. Imagine i was wide awake from like 1am all the way till 4am, staring at my bedrooms ceiling for the longest time ever.

Furthermore, i seriously dont recall sleeping. Even up till my alarm rang, i was somehow still rather awake.

Currently into the third week of my first stopover. Im going to have two icas on thursday, and one role play ica on friday. Sucks pretty much, especially when ive got training every mondays, wednesdasy, and fridays.

Gosh, i cant imagine myself doing full shift for the next stopover. ):

And because Eunice is currently coaching us, temporarily maybe, our training became even more tough, tedious, strict, effective and efficient haha! I somehow tried diving yesterday. But only got slight grazes and bruises on my knees as compared to the others!

Ya, i am so fat. I must learn to be as determined as Bani, gosh he slimmed down so fast during the holidays. He've been eating greens everyday and running 10km within one hour, every three days or what. CANNOT REMEMBER.

Anyway working on the script for customer service thingy module, our ICA2 this friday.

OH AND HELLO TIFFANY, I KNOW YOU'LL BE READING THIS. ANSWER MY QUESTION K AND SEE YOU ON MAY 15 :D

2010-05-04T20:48:00.004+08:00

Look at the state of my thumbdrive.

I've been thinking a lot. I'm so hardworking in keeping my mind sane and sound, and alert. By thinking a lot.
Thats why sometimes i tend to overthink.

I think rugby is so not my kind of game. I mean, i love it. But i dont wanna drag my team down.

There, if you dont know. This is the game HAHAHAHA watch the video. (Just nice grace asked me to see this. so yeah)
Eh its a super speed and mind game omg wthbbqctb. So i was thinking maybe i should switch to another cca or something that is more ME.

Oh well, that aside.

I've got ICA tomorrow and that sucks max, well cos i haven studied at all. Its always the first ICA that drags my entire term's grade down.

I'm tired of my life.

2010-05-02T00:31:00.009+08:00

Alright i shall update this space more often, cos i realised there are still plenty of frequent intruders! Haha! So nice of you guys! So i'll make the effort to post some ugly pics of me k. In case you all forget how i look like!

But my blog always no words one. Like so boring can! Why you all still come and visit. Aiyo.

Everytime i go bloghop, then no pictures i will just close the window.

Sigh, what am i actually thinking manxz.

I hate my life, i hate what is going to happen in a few months time, i hate my future.
Theres no goal, i've got no aims, even have also failed already. I dont know what to do in the future.

So i wanna die. But cannot go die also.
Later my mum alone. Then what. She grieve until no tomorrow. But i still wanna die. Why live meaningless-ly? Waste my time.

HAHAHHAHA mummy looking at other camera tsk. Oh and she looks really a lot better in real life. Swear.

Painted these matte pink nails before training on wednesday, along with some of the girls. Bimbo not? :D some chipped off during training already.

I went shopping alone in town yesterday. Somehow its rather alright, own time own target. Just that no one to talk to (nevermind talk to myself lor), or maybe sometimes we're just afraid what others may say behind your back.

Its just the fear of what others think of you.

"I wanna be skinny i wanna be skinny I wanna be skinny i wanna be skinny I wanna be skinny i wanna be skinny I wanna be skinny i wanna be skinny I wanna be skinny i wanna be skinny."

This is what i've been telling myself every single day. But haha no achievements at all. Not doing any exercises too. So serves me right for being so fat k.

I cannot resist buying these floral cloths. I still dont know what to do with it. Any ideas. Maybe a pouch yeah.

Eh i want nice legs. Running everyday works is it?!

2010-04-28T23:18:00.005+08:00

THIS CARDIGAN FROM F21 IS AWESOME. ):

9am lesson today, up till now (timecheck 11.18pm), finally able to settle down on the sofa and relax.

Lesson time, quizes quizes and more quizes. Like animated quizes haha. Not happy with results can redo one.

Talked around.

Cheralyn, Pamela, Yihui, Jeffrey sitting around. Had fun making fun and fooling around.

Then got released early. WHICH IS SUPER ANNOYING I HATE IT COS EVERYTIME I GOT SUPER EXCESS TIME BEFORE TRAINING STARTS YET I CANT GO HOME THAT KIND. HATE IT. THEN WILL RELEASE EARLY. SO ANGRY.

Took the train over to angmokio hub to find eugenia and jolene. Waited for like 6 minutes for the train, i'm like super daisai, LIKE AS USUAL.

HAHA AGACIA CAME EARLY TO ACCOMPANY JOLENE.

Short Peter Gold. I'm like forever so lame.

Training, juniors came down. Suddenly so not used to being a senior. NOT SERIOUS ENOUGH.

I farted during training.

My face is terrible. I've got massive massive massive breakouts on my two fat cheeks and forehead. Urgh, hormonal imbalance lah.

Played an atrocious 6v6, seriously screw that person who suggested. SERIOUSLY ITS HORRIBLE. I feel so embarrassed i feel like dying NOW thinking about it.

GOT HIT ON THE ARMS AND THIGHS BY SOME BLOODY HELL FRISBEE GUY. TOO MUCH SERIOUSLY. LIKE COS I SO FAT, SO THE FRISBEE LIKE 'BUA' ACROSS MY FATTY BODY. SO PAINFUL OKAY. GO EAT FISH.

Packed, washed, and took the train back home.

AIYA I'M SO TIRED NOW KTHXBYE.

2010-04-22T21:09:00.003+08:00

EH I'M BACK, GOT MISS ME NOT.

Aiyo, my desktop's screen contracted jaundice. The entire screen is like yellow. Definitely cannot stare too long at the screen, after that when you look elsewhere like all yellow too.

Then my laptop also gone bonkers already, the screen will jump and jump.

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL TODAY. What a boring lesson.

2010-04-16T00:26:00.001+08:00

The only vegetable or fruit that was never sold frozen, canned, processed, or in any other form but fresh, is

LETTUCE!

Okay. So boring.

2010-04-15T00:49:00.004+08:00

GOT THIS WOMAN WANNA BUY MY DENIM LEGGINGS RIGHT. I ALREADY SELLING HER AT THE COST WHEREBY I BOUGHT IT.

THEN SHE FIRST ASK HER PICS, THEN SHE KEEP ASKING ME WHERE I BOUGHT IT. WHEN I DONT TELL HER, SHE MAKE GUESSES. WTF GO DIE. THEN I SAY NO, THEN SHE SAY THEN WHERE?

WTF GO DIE.

THEN SAY POSTAGE SURE DAMN EX, ASK WHATS THE MATERIAL LIKE. KEEP WHINING AND WHINING. HELLO WASTE MY SMS K YOU CRAZY WOMAN.

IN THE END I STILL NEED TO FORK OUT POSTAGE? NO WAY HELLO GIRL.
THEN SHE EVEN DARE ASK ME SELL HER TWO FOR EIGHT DOLLARS WHEN IM SELLING IT AT LIKE EIGHT FOR ONE.

SHE STUPID OR WHAT WHERE TO FIND FOUR DOLLARS LEGGINGS BRAND NEW SOMEMORE. WTF GO DIE LAH.

THEN SOMEMORE SAY FAST DEALS. THIS ONE CALL FAST DEAL?! PUI MY ASS LAH. GO DIE!

THEN NOT ONLY THAT STILL KEEP ASKING ME WHY ONE FOLDED ONE NOT. HELLO ITS TWO DIFFERENT ITEM WHAT. SIAO. I ALSO DIDNT SAY ITS SIMILAR. YOU MAD WOMAN GO DIE PLEASE.

2010-04-13T22:38:00.003+08:00

Like hello, i want this okay.
Totally dig that curtain, pillow case and quilt cover.

Or we can totally print this on our tee.
HAHA. But our team all skinny like stick, im the only fat one.

2010-04-12T22:27:00.003+08:00

Check out my damn slouchy tee and huge baggy shorts :D

Big sigh, huge sigh, mega sigh.

It always at times like that whereby i'll let my thought run wild. I need answers and solutions to my problems. I've got many major things that are weighing on my mind, but i do not know the exact details of it. Which means, i dont even know what am i actually fretting about.

Total retardness.

I feel as though im being monitored by my mum's friend's daughter, on fb. Got no privacy at all, then my mum will like come up to me and ask in a polite manner la.

Then i think im depressed yet again because of school. Yeah, holidays are gonna be over soon. Like in a blink of an eye. I've not truly enjoyed myself okay. I dont wanna be stressed. ):

I'm currently selling a couple of brand new clothes whereby ive not worn at all online, with the mega help from huihui of course.
I think im seriously not cut to do business. I'll make losses if this were to go on. Major sadness.

I think my hair is in a hopeless state already. ):

Friendlies tomorrow. Lets hope they're friendly k.

2010-04-10T14:44:00.002+08:00

I dont know whats wrong with me.
I'm supposed to hate him.

But, he..
asked me: 'went out to have dinner?'
I looked at him and remained silent..
Then he said, "why? are you disappointed?"

......
.....

Damn, i think at the end of the conversation, he's still a bastard afterall.
But, i teared. Fuck, i hate myself for being so weak.

2010-04-05T18:13:00.005+08:00

Random stuffs.

One:
Theres still signs of cough and flu. Im coughing and sniffing, still.

Two:
Participated in the junior match organized by SP last saturday, and got badly burnt by the scorching sun.

Played a total of seven matches, won one, draw two, lost four.

Three:
Slacked at home and be a couch potato the entire day, you know those aches you get from slacking too much. Yeah, thats what im experiencing now. But i love it you know.

So hoping that school will never start. I just love waking up only at 12pm.

Four:
Contemplating if i should cut my hair shorter, still.

Been doing research on her hair, i think she's damn chio, face small like an insect's. Whereas my face is like the size of your home's television.

Prefer bangs to side fringe.

Five:
Bought a pair of ultimate fashionable glasses at $1.20 yesterday.

So ugly, unglam. Laugh for all you want. Like xx said, ugly girls are everywhere. So why bother.
Its not like you get to see me in my ultra over stretched tee and my forehead everyday.
So dont be so mean and critisize me.

Six:
Loving her look, love the colours. Its time to be all colourful this season.

Seven:
Met up with sexybaby last night, the card holder at popular is no longer available anymore. I'm like super daisai or what.

Eight:
Saw the darker brown got-slightly-more-fur-weird-looking kapi selling at Action City at $11.90, compared to mine like a dollar only.

Neh this one.

Mine's like this

Dont know which one is the correct one.

Nine:
Mummy shocked me when she asked me if i watched my spongebob already. She even know his chinese name. Hahaha!!!

So ugly please, dont know why they so mean.

Ten:
Actually wanted to go nap for awhile, but got to know that its already 5PM, furthermore im lazy to walk to my room.

Eleven:
I've not taken my shower.

Twelve:
Processed food is super unhealthy, but what to do. I like leh.

Thirteen:
I bought a new pair of running shoes.

So pretty, i like the pink. But somehow it looks like some china imitation goods. I know okay i know.

Fourteen:
I actually typed a couple more things but bloody thing couldnt do copy paste, deleted half the post away, i couldnt remember what i typed, furthermore im lazy, plus couldnt undo.

You say stupid or not.

Fifteen:
Quite a number of friends got good progress award from ITE. But i've got none leh.
I know, cos no progress.

Sixeen:
Okay off to shower now.

2010-04-01T13:44:00.002+08:00

I hate this major flu of mine. Its getting in the way of my daily life.

One: I dont know why but my ears will be blocked and muffled. No matter how much saliva i tried to swallow to 'pop' it, it just doesnt work.

Two: I get breathless easily cos i can only breathe through my mouth.

Three: I cant even smell if my foot stinkz.

Four: I think woods cough syrup sucks. Yes, ive got a bad cough too.

Five: I have to sleep with my mouth open, which will result in a bad ache in the jaws.

I dont understand why i'm always deemed as not serious, constantly joking around during training. But im serious okay. If im not, i wont bother going down for every single training, IN HOPE TO IMPROVE MYSELF. Even when it failed terribly, I STILL MADE THE EFFORT.

And i believe i will succeed one day, if i really want it.

Actually its rather depressing to be misunderstood. She didnt try to understand us anyway.

Read this really pretty rugger's blog last night, or rather, this morning.
She got cuts and grazes from knee below, due to some match which they got champion eventually.
At the end of the post, theres one sentence that she said:

'anything for the team.'

Wow.
It really struck me hard. One year of training together, yet we've got no bond or whatsoever.
Even though we're playing together, most of the time its only for ourselves. Or just 个自玩个的.

We often forget we're playing as a team. We are a team in fact. And the player beside you is your team mate, not someone you boss around. All the more we should help one another out during trainings or games what.

Sigh. All the best to our sat's carnival k.

2010-03-29T12:28:00.001+08:00

Bloody blogger very disobedient now. I blogged like an entire chunk, saved in drafts and now its like half gone. Damn it. Who got the mood to re-type everything you tell me.

GRRRR.

Anyway, will be back to blog soon!

2010-03-29T11:21:00.010+08:00

HELLO EVERYONEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D
HAPPY TWENTIETH BIRTHDAY TO ME!
OKAY, I'M TWENTY ALREADY AT THIS POINT OF TIME.

Eh, so annoying please. I really dont quite feel like turning twenty this soon. Twenty years old leh, like TWO freakin' decades.

But still, i must really really thank all my friends, and each and every one who wished me a happy birthday.

I appreciate it a lot and it really really meant a lot to me, many thanks! <3

On 210310, Love celebrated my birthday way in advance co of ojt. Thank you so much for the cake, flower, bag and cards!

Then on 220310, Poly loves + kimhock gave me a surprise celebration! :D I didnt know about it luh, already said its surprise.

Initially wanted to give it a miss if my earlier hair cutting session were to screw up. Hehe! But i went still.
And here are the pictures i stole from Lydia's blog! She've got all the pictures with her!
And she made the effort to collage all the pictures. Eh make me look less fat okay.

THANK YOU AND LOVE YOU ALL! <3>

260310
My dear ITE bestest enemy celebrated my birthday for me, at the same place! Eh i knew they're celebrating, this one can damn thick skin, cos they know we too well already.

And here is an ugly picture of me, cos i just cried. HAH! Look at the fat rat they made me. Laughed like potatoes when i saw them.

Pictures on fb, i bet you guys saw them. Super ugly and unglam. Hah!
Eh blogger really giving me problems.
The photos i post will automatically be gone after like 30secs. Whats wrong!

But nevertheless,
THANK YOU AND LOVE YOU ALL! <3>

Some people came and go, but the true ones remained..
I must really thank those we stayed, dont care you willing or not willing! I love you all!

My Rats!

2010-03-18T15:05:00.005+08:00

I dont look very nice here. But its okay. At home where got pretty one.
Madness, i've got 16 big rats, 6 small rats.

You know im bored.
Haha!

Friends......

2010-03-14T01:41:00.008+08:00

I did really badly for today's training. How should i put this, well i'm always deproving, never improving, still the square one. Yeah, square one (pun).

DAMN SAD x1000000000000000.

And while doing the drills, i just felt the fainting spells. And ya, shitty.

Worse was J puked like merlion please!

Then i really feel so extremely lousy for not being able to complete the sets given. Damnit!

The lack of exercise for one month. Argh.

Actually the weather was fine, not scorching hot at all.
But morning sessions always give me such silly problems lah.
Dont eat will faint cos of low sugar level, if eat, run too much will vomit.

Super troublesome, but i love the sun.
Such bad love-hate relationship.

And friends, ask me out please.
We're too formal seriously.

And i really didnt ps you all on purpose, for the it fairfairfairfairrrr!

Alice in Wonderland 3D movie!
Graphics awesome much! :D

I've been trying to learn how to tie this fish braid on my own, but it always ended up messy urgh.

Then my sis just watched the video like again, then she managed to tie it already.

Whereas my mum, after watching it like umpteen times, she still couldnt get it.

Now i know where i inherited my slow-learner genes from uh!

AND MY AWESOME MUCH HELLO KITTY RINGS HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

2010-03-12T14:34:00.003+08:00

Suffering from a silly headache yet again. Perhaps i slept too much, or the lack of exercise. Or i thought too much again.

I've been cooping at home idling my time away.

2010-03-09T18:04:00.002+08:00

Its never fair, in fact, nothing is fair in this world.

First, you lose your freedom the moment you're out of that womb, plus, you werent given a choice to choose your own parents.

I hate my dad, i really do. Its because theres love, thats why theres hatred.

Enough of him, i've had enough.

Its the holidays now, and as usual, when no one asks me out, i will be slumped on the sofa eyes glued to the telly, snacking non stop.

I'll then watch all the repeats, reply random smses.

Wanted to go to the gym or swimming on many attempts but failed. Gaining weight and fats like nobody's business.

Fuck the amount of hair that drops each time i comb my hair, and the dullness that comes along with it.

Seriously, fml. I think ive been unlucky and unrecognized since young.

But ive got to stop thinking about all the negative things about my life in order for it not to be so negative.

Actually im feeling rather insecured. I'm afraid this entire world will leave me, then i'll be all alone.

Okay shut bye.

2010-02-27T00:08:00.003+08:00

Hey guys, thanks for all the tags on my tagboard! I feel so loved. Haha! I read every single one of them, and yes, thank you very much. I love you guys too, hee!

Wilson, my examinations ended today. (:

And so, Dad replied my text.

I think its better if i didnt text him in the first place. Mum asked me to do so. I kept doing silly things that i didn't want to do, but just for the sake of her, i did.

He finally replied me today, after two days or so. And during these two days, mum couldn't stop asking if he replied. We think she's suffering from severe depression already. She's thinking far too much, causing disruptions to the people around her.

Given my short-temper and my impatient character, i think i cannot tolerate it any longer.

She kept saying "you wont know how it feels unless you're the one experiencing it."

Then who's going to be concern about how i feel? She needs support, then who's going to support me?

All she's concerned now is him, and only him.

But for me? My dad, my own dad doesnt want us anymore, my mum's like this. I kept having to worry about her safety, worry if she'll do anything stupid.

I've got two things to vex about! What kind of pressure do you think i'm undergoing?

I'm merely a 19 year old. I can totally wash my hands off this entire thing, cos its none of my business. But can i? Blame me on not being firm enough. I am far too weak hearted.

Because of your one silly mistake, your every silly actions that caused the entire family to go into a blender state. What wrong have i done to deserve all these?

Its your responsibility, when and why has it become mine now?

2010-02-25T00:38:00.002+08:00

My uncle suffered from mild heart attack and was admitted to the hospital yesterday.

Then just now when i went to visit him, he said to me, "see, you should have gone to taiwan this year, there might not be next year already."

Haha, actually he's been saying about his death quite frequently this few months.

I think he's someone who loves me more than my dad does. Hope he gets well soon.

Speaking of Dad, he left this morning.

I dont know what will happen when he comes back, or should i say, i dont know if he'll ever come back, maybe not.

Things will never be the same again. There wont be anyone hogging the television, no one will wake me up with the booming voice, no one to call "Pa" anymore.

I've got mixed feelings about this entire thing, which makes me rather bias and blinded about some truth which i should face?

I dont know. I'm alright, seriously. Stop bugging me about it, cos the more you ask the more i need to think about it. My head is just about to burst okay.

Dad was brought up in a love-less family, at least thats what i think. Therefore he doesnt know how to express his love for us. And that is probably why we're not so close to him.

I do dislike him, yes.

But it still saddens me to see him packing his stuffs, leaving this home he took years to build up. He rather sacrifice three family members, for the sake of one conwoman.

I'm so stressed, i'm going bald soon. I feel like a lonely child with no love at all in this world.

Can somebody, anybody love me?

2010-02-18T01:50:00.001+08:00

Vivien Ong says:
*hehe
*ok
*what is the three types of control?
*no looking!

~Yihui~【輝】神秘的天蝎座: “多做多错，少做少错，不做不错”！ says:
*feedforward,concurrent and feedback
*correctZ?

Vivien Ong says:
*YES!
~Yihui~【輝】神秘的天蝎座: “多做多错，少做少错，不做不错”！ says:
*others

Vivien Ong says:
*who lives in the pineapple under the sea?

~Yihui~【輝】神秘的天蝎座: “多做多错，少做少错，不做不错”！ says:
*spongebob

Vivien Ong says:
*hmm correct!

HAHAHAHA, not bad eh!

2010-02-17T23:47:00.002+08:00

Mad already.
Just finished battling with bees infestation. Uhm, they just flew in from some hive upstairs i guess. Some morons upstairs went to trifle the bees which made then all frenzy and went visiting every household. At least they visited mine..

I've not been studying.
Yet again.

2010-02-17T03:33:00.005+08:00

Oh bother. I just painted my nails, and before it can even dry, its already in a mess. Forget it, shall remove it tomorrow cos i dont want to stink up the airconditioned room.

I couldnt focus on studying, mainly because im too lazy to think and that everything is distracting me.

Even the slightest thing that wouldnt think of during your free times, become an attention grabber during the revision period.

Which i'll end up watching televsion, tidying my room, looking around, walking around instead of studying. Damn it.

Ehh, anyway its like the 3rd day of CNY already, and the total amount of red packets i got from my relatives amounted to only four. Haha, if inclusive of my parent's then it'll be six.

See, i'm like a poor kid who dont even get to enjoy the privileges of this festive season.

What can i expect omg.
I've got zero grandparents, 2/3 of my relatives from my mummy's side went overseas (which i would already have if not of this upcoming exams), and 1/2 of which from my daddy's side went missing in action. I'm serious. They just went missing. HAHAHA.

Moreover, my dad's even working on the eve, first and till now. He's working every single day.
Therefore, this year's new year is like not the new year at all.

StudyStudyStudyStudyStudyStudyStudyStudyStudyStudyStudyStudyStudyStudyStudyStudy!
Totally no mood at all. ):

Oh! I caught Kungfu Panda around two or three days ago? AND IT WAS FREAKING HILARIOUS AAAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. Feel like slapping his face which i dont know why either. :D

..And to Shawn Chen Kui Guang! I think you know what i want to say to you. HAHA.

2010-02-11T23:21:00.000+08:00

Shit, i'm like ants on the hot pan now. There are four modules fighting for my attention, but its like i've got very limited time.
How to study finish?! But thinking back, last semester was worse, with 3 papers back to back. At least this sem's like on alternate days.
Argh, numbers.

2010-02-07T14:05:00.007+08:00

I'm gonna be such a sad soul from now on, cos its the examinations period. And i need, have and must mug, in order to pull up my horrendous GPA. And thankfully, we're given a break off rugby trainings since its the exam period. Yay!

How nice it is to see someone who doesnt have to mug. And how nice it is to have a salary every month. Money will just keep you going. Hehe.
Accompanied my cousin to get his Iphone yesterday. Haha, can form like Iphone club already.

I made this banner using just paint, for our online store. Haha, Glenys hates that mouth over there in the centre. But im not going to remove it cos its too tedious! No choice girl, just close one eye!

Still wondering what to wear for presentation of this online store tomorrow. The guys are required to wear bow ties and fedora hats. Hilarious shit.

Darren brought his DSLR to school the other day and we took this shot! :D

Had reunion dinner at my grandma's house yesterday, cos the rest of the family are flying off soon. :( Then suffered from indigestion cos i drank too much slurpee and ate too much food.
HAHA, serves me right for being so greedy.

Alright k, i need to study my management noww.

2010-02-01T17:45:00.002+08:00

I'm currently in school, feeling greedy and hungry, yet again.
Training resumes this wednesday, but i can somehow feel that the passion somehow died.
Maybe i still cant get over it. But well..

My blog is dead boring.
-shrugs.

2010-01-23T13:02:00.003+08:00

Sharepoint project as if done, but am not sure if its really done. I'm afraid of last minute crop-ups.

Just about a month plus to clear this semester. Its gonna be super tough.

Press on press on press on!

Cheralyn, wait for me. I'll help you with econs ppt.

2010-01-20T19:02:00.005+08:00

Me being a bitch, points out to the learner car.

Me: " HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, still L plate."
TWY: " HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, but you no car."

Argh! Why did i just shoot myself in the head.

Constantly doing up my personal homepage. Just another f-up project, almost the same as frontpage.
Which means, im doing it AGAIN, just that its by using another software.

I've not started on the Eff Comm project.
Exams coming. Life's a bitch.

I'm suffering from financial crisis now. Gotta be stingy, scrimp and save.
For rainy days. -.-

2010-01-19T16:32:00.009+08:00

Rat with Frootloops on eyes. Sister's suggestion. Oh well.

Good Afternoon readers..

My friends are currently singing happily in front of me. :D Hehe.

The contractors removed my entire toilet bowl in the masterbed room's toilet, and placed it in our corridor.

Awesome. Especially when i needed it urgently last night, and the other toilet was occupied by my daddy.

Yesterday's training was super tiring for me, as i didnt really sleep the night before. I was thinking about..many things.

I just got back my statistics test paper, and chucked it aside. Cos we already knew our results weeks back.

Its horrendous.

Grace got me the spongebob handphone pouch and lanyard. Hehe, oh my god love you many!

Need to do my sharepoint now.

Bye.

2010-01-12T15:37:00.003+08:00

TWY:STUDY ECON LAR...USE WAT LAPTOP....

Hahaha, yes. I used it during the break what!

My head is weighing like an elephant, from the overloading of stuffs. Be it family matters, rugby, or schoolwork.

Its weighing on me, so heavy that i can hardly breathe. I am such a failure, a total failure.

I'm doing very badly for my modules, as for cca, going to each and every training only made me feel more miserable and useless. It just proved so..

The more i want it, the more i wont get it. The more i put in my best, the more it backfires..

I guess this few weeks will be the last few weeks that i'll be seeing my dad.

He's leaving us soon.

My mum's in distress, and my sister couldnt be bothered. But, no matter what, he's still my dad. I loved him, and i believed he does too.
Just that his way of expressing his love for us was different.

It was hard, but we tried our best.

Nothing is going smoothly for me now. What is the true meaning of happiness?
I totally couldnt remember.

2010-01-12T15:37:00.002+08:00

Aww, what a beauty..and the woman in me emerges again.

I'll be having my Statistics presentation in about less than half an hour's time! And Bani just taught me a new term.

BLUR COCK!

Oh well. It is used to describe, uh, blur cocks.

AND NOW, I'VE GOT THE URGE TO PIERCE MY TONGUE ):

2010-01-10T22:53:00.000+08:00

I love fifi lapin and kapibara.
Yes, and pokpok of course.

Ruck hard for tomorrow's match, my girls! ♥

2010-01-08T22:20:00.005+08:00

Just now i ate a guava, and after several mouthfuls of it, i realized there're worms in it.

"Its okay, worms are supposed to be good for you." as quoted by my sister.

How horrible.

Dwwaaaangggggg~

Lydia's twister fries. Its suuuuperrr tempting, but no.

Then here's lydia and me, with our super contrasting skin color.

They said its the lighting problem..
Changed sides, and its still the same.
No worries, you're not fat here. No one reads my blog either :D

Sexybaby, my cotton on shopping buddy :D

Yun and Shan, in Nabins itself on New Year's Eve.

Gulping down 500ml of water, so as not to be dehydrated for tomorrow's friendlies.
Its a torture.

2010-01-05T23:17:00.002+08:00

I'm a weakling.
Just a little failure, a little setback, a little obstacles and a little toughness, and i cant take it anymore already.

I feel as if my entire world is about to crumple on me. Which is good too, cos its better off dead.

I've got rather short attention span and perhaps that explains why.

I've been wanting to study and do really well in my tests and whatever examinations. But because of my short attention span, i go around doing anything and everything else except on what im supposed to do.

Or, when im doing any particular long question, my mind get drifted away, lost concentration and results in giving up very quickly.

):

I did so badly for my stats and econs paper that i almost feel like dying.

Its mummy's birthday tomorrow. Perhaps the most miserable birthday ever, in her entire life.

What am i supposed to do now.

2010-01-03T01:11:00.004+08:00

CMS is such an irrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitating system, forever a bitch.

And, i've got a love hate relationship with elearning.

I really hate it when, instructions given down by lecturers are not clear. Not only i dont know what else needs to be completed, the things that need to be completed have to be completed within the given time.

Worse still, we dont even know if we have or do not have lecture on certain days.

Then just nice, cms either cant load, or take very long to load.

But the good thing, theres no school. So no need to travel, no need to wake up early. But whats the difference seriously.

Sigh, fml.

Well, i just saw Grace's blog. And i must say i love her wants for 2010, number 7.

7. a car ( bigger ones so to fit ruggers in)

HAHAHAHHA. Yes please, big enough to fit a cupboard in too. Thankyouverymuch.

2010-01-01T03:34:00.006+08:00

Hola a todos, feliz año nuevo!

Brand new year, brand new month, brand new day. (:

Happy 2010 everyoneeeeeeeeeeee.

First and foremost, i think this year's going to be an extremely tough and rough year for me.. But i've got no choice yeah.

And to that vixen, please do go and dieeeeee.

Secondly, I just had a memorable new year mini gathering with my ITE classmates. And it was really really memorable, thanks to our dearest drunken Mr Wong.

He freaked me out totally by his sudden absurd actions. It was seriously super terrifying. Even his text messages, showed that he's really drunk.

He kept blabbering nonsense and even asked the cab driver to stop talking on the phone and concentrate driving. Like omg wth seriously.

So i hurriedly got down the cab and went to sexybaby's house.

Which i must thank all god, who blessed us a safe trip home and that i'm able to chat with sexybaby until my zookeeper came to fetch me. HAHAHA!

I must really thank her for having me there, hee! With much loves!

And, thank you each and everyone who called/texted me and wished me a blessed year! Same goes to you guys out there! Wish you all happiness all year round! :D

Right now, i've got to go to sleep.
Buenas Noches!

Pictures Mr Wong just sent, haha! I was using his BB to camwhore lah.

2009-12-30T01:23:00.003+08:00

Theres a class gathering this thursday with my ITE classmates, and we're supposed to buy a gift for gift exchange.

Then, i texted the sexybaby of mine and asked her what she's gonna get. She too, dont know what to get.

Then, after watching the television programme, it gave me the idea of giving yellow pages! HAHAHAHAHA :D
Its damn useful i tell you. There are a hundred and one ways to use the yellow pages. I'm going to wrap the yellow pages in old newspaper somemore. Super environmental friendly i tell you.

And so, the sexybaby didnt want to lose out to me. She thought and she thought.
Finally, she thought of an even brilliant idea. Give Reader's Digest. You say brilliant not!
Its even within the price range.
(Y) Thumbs up for you HAHAHAHA.

Alright, actually i'm rather bored. And i feel like blogging nonsensical stuffs.

I hate the construction going on downstairs. I dont know whats going on, there seems to be like every household is taking turns to renovate their houses, except for us.

So we end up suffering, and having to put up with the noise and dust.

The point is, i cant even enjoy my holidays. The non-stop drilling and hammering hits kept shaking me up from my sleep. I literally jumped up wide-eyed this morning upon the drills.

Totally pissed off.

Met up in school to do economics project and off to NAC to meet cousin for the interview. I hope it helps seriously, cos i hate this module argh.

Omg, end of year already. So fast.
Last year we're at the class chalet counting down am i right?

2009-12-27T21:44:00.006+08:00

Belated boxing, and christmas day.

.. I dont know what will be the outcome of it. But i hope things will get better and may history never repeat itself again.

I will forgive, and forget.

But then, come to think of it. I think its impossible.

Recently, its the rushing-project-phase again. Definitely hating it.

Got scammed by cousin to the airport yesterday, when we're already going into the carpark.
I dont know why am i so gullible, or is he too smart. Hahs, been scamming me for the past nineteen years of my life.

But i get to eat popeyes, so it balanced up my misfortune.

How did you guys celebrate your christmas this year? Was it nice and memorable?

In like a few days time, we're all going to invite year 2010. Hopefully it'll be a great year ahead.
Many things happened this year, but i think its bad more than good.

Sigh, life sucks.
I'm such a bitch with terrible temper. The mess in my room is making me extremely frustrated.

Trg tomorrow.

I hate my hands.

2009-12-23T23:04:00.004+08:00

Sigh. Life sucks.

There are so many things i would like to tell my father. But the fear of getting scolded, the fear of him yanking my head off my neck always stopped me from doing it.

But i think i will just tell him one of these days. Its hard to communicate, considering our age gap.
Our views and values are totally different. And since its hard to communicate, i strongly believe its a scam.

Fucking scam.

But no one listens.

Okay, enough of that. I have to maintain my focus on rugby.
Forget about the moves, forget about hitting whatever gaps, forget about my stupid stamina.

The thing now is that i need to catch the bloody ball. Catch the bloody ball!!

My hands my hands my hands!

"Work on your hands, Vivien. Thats the thing that is always failing you." ): I know i know!

YES OMG FOR GOODNESS SAKE MY HANDSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

I feel like slamming my face on the wall whenever i missed the ball. I dont feel good at all, so many tries could have been possible if not for my stupid hands!

And not only that, my passes were horrible. Horrible to the very max.
Keep my focus, keep my focus!

Sigh, i'm going to draw and remember my moves.
Cos i only know how when the ball comes from the right.
I need to go remember it when it comes from the left, so no more fighting HAHAHAHAHA!

What else..

2009-12-22T12:49:00.003+08:00

Tag Replies:

Sexybaby: Yeah, i'm fine thank you(:
Yun: Haha, i will. Dont worry yeah. See you soon!
TWY: Hehe, i need to get new boots. Cui liao.
Wilson: Haha, still long before i graduate okay.

Thats all.

Life sucks, seriously.
Julia said not to take it so hard upon ourselves. But how not to?
Maybe its really not my kind of game. Its been miserable all these while.
FML please.

I've been whining non-stop since yesterday. Rather an unlucky day, sigh.
First, i left my homework at home, but luckily i dont know why it was not needed.
Then a lady stepped on my poor toe with her heels. It was $%^$%^$*# painful ttm.
Then, training yesterday sucked.

Whats moreeeeeeeeeee.
I cant believe i told TWY my problems.
-smacks forehead.

Jaded

2009-12-20T22:50:00.003+08:00

I removed the tagboard, cos you know, i'm slow in replying tags. Also, seldom theres tagging.
So if you wanna say anything, msn or text me!

Training tomorrow at the usual time, selections for ivp going on i guess.

My mum's forever awesome. She knew i wont get selected to play, cos she knows me too well, but she decided not to say anything about it. Until just now, when i told her about the question about esther.
Well, i know i'm forever too blur on field, and that i cant see gaps. I wont know what to do after i get the ball, oh wait. Getting the ball is already a huge challenge for me i guess. My ball handling skills sucks, and thats like the crux of everything.

But i'm trying. Whenever in pressure, i'll lose my mind. Madness. And i never fail to be nervous and be so pressurized.

Right now, Jolene, Grace and i are cracking our brains on how to draw our moves. Its terrible cos we're all confused about hitting which gaps, who dumps the ball and who's the dummy.

Hahaha, my drawing looks funny and I dont even know what i'm drawing. Need to practice passing tomorrow before training begins!

Oh, and another sian thing is that i cant go to my class's christmas party! Aww, there goes my five bucks! But its okay, you guys can eat my share of food and enjoy yourself alright! Merry christmas to you all (:

No matter what the outcome is, as long as you'll be happy, i'll support you.
ily mummy..

The Father

2009-12-17T18:59:00.003+08:00

Count yourself lucky, if your dad is a great man.
One that loves his family, above everything else in his life.

I dont remember anything great that my dad've done for me. Maybe for that day whereby i was sick and he brought me to the doctor.

Other than that, i seriously cant think of anything else. The time whereby i asked money from him, or he voluntarily gave me money was almost nil.

Alright, 3 instances to be exact. The occasional $10 for topping up card, and that was because my mum wasnt home, money to buy books, mp3 player and the most recent one, $200 to buy sports shoes cos mine was really tattered to the max.

Seriously, i've never seen any father in the world that doesnt love his daughter. My dad would probably be the first. He even complained that the boots i bought was too expensive, when mine was like the cheapest lowest quality lowest grade.

I thought there might be a 0.1% chance that you'll buy us a car. But now, i think you should just go and die.

I will never forget that very day whereby Mdm Zhao said she wanted to call my dad cos i was busy talking to evelyn during mother tongue class.
Haha, i said "i dont have a dad."
I dont regret saying that sentence actually.

And now, i really wish you're dead. I hate you. PLEASE GO AND DIE.
You're the one who let us down in the first place.
My heart's feeling so shattered and miserable that i'm afraid i cant take it anymore.
I'm afraid i might lose control of myself.

I wonder how long can i take this.
Fuck, i need a shrink.

2009-12-09T00:22:00.008+08:00

Birthdays are good for everyone!
Statistics shows that people who have it lives the longest! <3

Therefore, i would like to wish a very..

Happy Birthday to Daddy, <3, and little sis, Jo.

2009-12-07T20:49:00.005+08:00

The sunflower wrapped in a spongebob wrapper.

I'm sick of my blogskin, its getting rather gay. But i cant be bothered to change it, well cos the look of those html code freaks me out.

I'm hungry now, despite the fact that i just had my dinner. I've got stats paper tomorrow, but i've yet to study it. Argh! Somehow, i do not like being stumped by questions. My gpa was horrendous, but it seems rather hard to pull it back up. They all say year ones are the most crucial period. fml ttm.

Didnt feel like sleeping at all during stats lecture, even though he was boring as usual. That was quite an achievement i suppose. But the lecture only lasted for an hour, so. And i forgot to tell him about my attendance AGAIN.

Celebrated yun's 20th birthday last saturday. Pictures on fb, hope you like your present my dearest enemy(:
Even though its a bit blur, but at least everyone's face not halved.

I like the fact that my room smells like koko krunch.

2009-11-30T22:40:00.003+08:00

I feel as if i've not blogged for a very long time.

There are many things processing in my mind every single second, yet i dont know how to put it in words cos always try to make it a point to blog in proper english. Yet, i'm too used to speaking lousy english/singlish that i no longer how to string sentences together.

I've got a handful of upcoming icas to study for, but i'm just too tired for anything.
I think i suck in time management. I rather spend my time watching tv, surfing the net, or hogging onto the ds for many hours. Furthermore, i've not done my econs tutorial this week. I've always been diligent in econs, but not now. HAHA!

I'm so in love and addicted to cooking mama 3.

I've been whining and complaining a lot. I wonder when will i start to learn to love myself more. But i was told, i need to learn how to love the people around me first.
But how to love myself when i've got like such a square face and fat body omg! Seriously, sigh x1000.

As for my dear friend CY, dont worry yeah. Everything will be fine. This, i ensure you. I'm still waiting for my christmas present alright!

2009-11-20T22:39:00.002+08:00

Yes, our oral communications first ICA is over, so was the presentation of INTWEB.
I know you've repeated it like more than ever, but i'm still guilty about it. It was seriously my fault, that i missed out one part on healthcare.
HAHA! My first reaction was to look at mickey mouse and weiyang, then mickey mouse prompted me to just bomb anything.Then i looked at weiyang. The hole was really too big and obvious to bomb! But weiyang eventually still came forward and bombed something, rather unconvincing. HAHAHAHA! Alright, thanks my awesome groupmates!(:

Then now its time to prepare the speech for the second assessment, and every module's respective assessment. I need to work super hard to pull up my pathetic gpa.

Oh and, the grass patch downstairs is finally back!

I need to finish up my accounts tutorial, otherwise i wont have time for it!

LASTLY, MY WALLET LIKE AUNTIE'S ONE MEH?!

2009-11-13T01:52:00.002+08:00

I REALLY HATE TO THINK THAT I'M A FREELOADER FOR ANY GROUP PROJECTS OMG.

2009-11-09T20:45:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling very helpless, and sad of cos. Theres something bothering me, yet i dont know how and what to do about it. I hate feeling like this. Hateeeeeeeeeee it.

Sometimes when i look at you, i lose all the toughness in me, i react differently altogether, and that can be quite bad seriously. I dont want to start relying on you, cos i know i cant.

We booked the media room today and watched The Little Mermaid today. Its really silly of me to feel a little sad when it came to the part whereby Ariel's dad casted some magic spell and changed her mermaid's tail into a pair of legs so that she can go marry the prince. I just thought it was really noble of him, and that all dads love their child and are willing to sacrifice anything.

Yet, i dont think my dad's that noble.

Anyway, i've been staring at this screen for the longest time now, trying to find more information for the project, which is due next monday. I dont know why i really cant seem to find any relevant articles or it is i searched the wrong keyword.

FML seriously.

I hate it when im not contributing or rather, contributing something irrelevant.

Urgency vivien, remember you need to do your economics and statistics tutorial. I know you're bored and pissed, but i really need to whine that i seriously hate statistics. My mind just auto blank out and i'll be lost. Whereas for HTML, i somehow know whats wrong with the code, but im just too lazy to squin my eye and make all those amendments.

I dont think it'll hurt to be yourself.

2009-11-04T12:59:00.002+08:00

Tutorials are driving me nuts. FML.

I'm feeling tired again, to the extent that i'm so sick and tired of feeling tired. You know what i'm saying. I think i get adequate amount of sleep each night, maybe not. Or i'm just plain lazy to wake up so early in the morning, endure the super long school hours and tutorials after i reach home.

Only six turned up for yesterday's training. Mad sweating session.

I just kicked my toenail-less toe against the chair leg. Yaw-ouch.

2009-11-02T13:00:00.004+08:00

Laughs! Thats silly grace with pokpok! What a nasty way to carry him, but yeah. Grace loves pokpok, i can totally see that.

Its monday again, im trying my best to stay awake during s. lecture. I dont understand a single thing taught today, whats with the < and the >, the page 42 ): totally suck in that.

Its a chore to carry my bloody heavy lapt. to school, but thankfully i've got daddy's netbook, which is indeed a lifesaver omg. And of cos darren who helped me with the connection. Sucks in IT stuffs.

Its project time again, leader sends text messages to check on us every now and then, so we cant skive at all! But im currently on fb and blogger. ftw right.

Trying very hard to think out of the BOX. Right dearest leader? Come fight with me yall!

Counting down to 5 more days.

2009-11-01T00:45:00.004+08:00

I finally changed my background colour to a milder shade of peach. Or whatever you call it. At least, its not so striking and glaring now.

Just came back from a trip to town, and i'm feeling extremely lethargic. Even though i didnt really do anything. Anyway, i've never been stucked in a carpark for such a long time like today. Today's jam was horrid. Stagnant.

I should start on my tutorials now, or else i wont have time for it next week. ): Which kinda sucked much i know. I hate it when i dont get enough sleep and all.
AFA's so tough its gonna kill. Argh i hate numbers.

I'm starting to blabber nonsense already, okay bye.

PS: MARCUS SUCK YALL. ;)

2009-10-26T20:36:00.006+08:00

I think, you'll somehow link your way here.

I think you'll magnanimous enough to understand the situation i am in.
You're truly a very nice person, and i really appreciate whatever you've done for me.
However, everything has its buts and however.

I'm sorry, and i guessed you've figured it out somehow that it might not work for us.
Sorry, i'm really feeling sorry..

Thanks for all your care and concern, thanks for the toy, thanks for being my listener, and thanks for being my friend all these while. I hope you'll sincerely continue to be one of my nicest friend, cos you'll always be mine.

I hope and wish to toss all the awkwardness between us, cos i really dont wanna lose such a nice friend like you.

But you must continue to help me in my studies okay! Cos you know how retarded i am in my subjects ):

Thank you, my friend. I hope you'll find your next better dawn...
(:

School training school training school training school training match school training match.
I seriously need someone to teach me how to manage my time, as i cannot multi-task ):
And i need to sleep, otherwise i'll behave like a grumpy old mother. And i so do not want to start a fight with any of my classmates/team mates.

I've not done any of my tutorials, FML.
Somemore i'm like super drained already can, i couldnt sleep the entire night cos i had too much to think.

FML LAH AIYO.

2009-10-22T22:40:00.002+08:00

Alright all, its really time to blog. School officially reopened this monday. Morning lessons as early as 8am, FML. Then we've got what i dread the most, accounting, public speaking, statistics, economics and more. Double FML. BUT, we dont have school on friday, which is something good.
You know how much i cant do my sums and oh, economics is really tough ): but somehow i managed to pull through today's lecture, or rather, i survived the first day of school!
So proud of myself. -double beams.
Then it was physical training on tuesday, wednesday and today. Both my legs ache and sore like mad, my shoulders, my arms and abdomen. FML!

Some random pcitures taken at the recent class barbeque, and a mini celebration for lydia's birthday.

Yes, not forgetting pokpok and my SQUARE FACE aka prata face. Right Mickey Mouse?

And, ending with a Clique Picture!

2009-10-16T13:55:00.001+08:00

Someone tell me why mosquitoes love me. ): Or maybe i'm the only being that carries blood here.
fml,much.

Open arms.

2009-10-16T01:50:00.002+08:00

I cant believe most of my friends are ready for school! My room is in such a huge mess that i dont think theres any space left for new books. I just threw away some books like a few days ago, yet there still isnt much space omg.
But, somehow i got all my stationery prepared already. Part of me wants school, but the major part of me hates school and i really dont wish for it to resume. ):

Another thing is that, i think we've got like fitness training every tuesday and thursday, and normal trainings on wednesday. Then bucks games on every saturday. Oh my, i already foresee myself panting and gasping for that meafre amount of air.
I'm hoping that we'll have artificial turf instead of normal grass field. I've had a hard time scrubbing my mud-filled socks just now that i just gave up. I know it hard we'll get burns when we dive, but how many a times do we actually dive haha. Okay just a random thought.

Alright, heres a random picture of me and yun, my crapping buddy, laughs.

Oh another thing is, i cant believe how i've got so much courage to remove my entire rotten toe nail out. It hurts, thats why i say, i wondered how ive got the courage to do it!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
i love frydays yo.

2009-10-12T12:17:00.002+08:00

I was texting Grace when i forgot where i placed my phone. Now i cant find my phone, and i'm sure she did reply me.

I can currently feel as though my face is all burning and about to tear off anytime. Forgot to stretch my arms after yesterday's game and now all my arm muscles ache like mad.

Played 5 rather short matches but our fitness level was so low, thats why we feel like dying after every single match. HAHA. I'm such a loser i know.

I was so exhausted and tired i just feel like sleeping all the way. Oh and i cant believe i just fell asleep while texting tiff last night. ):

And, do check out my orang utan picture on facebook yeah. HAHAHAHAHA, its unglam ttm but who cares uh.

2009-10-07T12:29:00.001+08:00

2009-10-01T14:43:00.003+08:00

annoying much, right at the start of a brand new month.
there goes my allowance, there goes my pathetic sum of money.
and a promise to a friend.

screams much.
in debt.
$5 per match.
fortune teller genuis says we'll lose.
so we shouldnt go yeah.

friendlies friendlies friendlies.

2009-09-29T23:18:00.004+08:00

We're all currently trying to bombard the fortune teller genius on FB, regarding drey's presence.
HAHA! Even the fortune teller says she should go for training and for sat's friendlies! So yes! Tell your daddy that pleasee.

Okay, sometimes the teller cant predict for nuts. It predicted that we'll lose on sat.
"Grace how long will i last im feeling tired says:
*teller is rubbish
*sat sure win."
HAHAHAHA! Okay blacks will definitely win.

Yes i managed to catch my Kapibarasan, many thanks to sbabi for slotting in her $1 coin hahaha! Omg, was so thrilled! And its not karupipi alright, NOT! HAHAHAHAHA!

My hair is damn gross, like a wig.

Counting down to school reopen day.
): I dont like.

2009-09-27T13:29:00.006+08:00

Bucks friendlies in the afternoon, at turf yesterday. Its really a friendly match(: Thank god that Esther decided to present herself,otherwise our team will only be left with Jolene, Beatrice and Me.
How pathetic it is! End up some other players from another team got to join in our team and help us out. Was kinda fun, and yes we won. Yay, and Jolene scored a try, so proud of her! I nearly scored one too okay, just that i dived too late and just got touched! But was fun.

Should have brought the camera along to take pics!

Then after much considerations, i decided to train over to my grandma's house. Sickening much! Crazy aunt came into the room where i was initially sleeping, switched on the lights and mopped the floor. Asssholeeeeee! Came back and complained to my sis, but she said mine's so much milder than hers. Yeah but, i feel that its the same! Equally retarded.

I really dont look forward to school-reopen-day. Another semester of books, mugging, and probably, some fun.
I seriously need to pull my GPA up, otherwise i'll so gonna struggle like a worm in year two and three. Sucks pretty much, but i dont have a choice.
A low GPA is certainly not something i desire. I am greedy, I NEED MORREEEEEEE.

Oh, evee and mich, if you're reading this, ask me out pleaseeeeeeee. Its been long since i saw you guys! ): Lot1's ntuc also can yeah!

2009-09-26T00:28:00.002+08:00

I got a pleasant morning text message this well, as i said, morning.
Then i fell back to sleep unknowingly.

Its Yun's first day of school today, and yeah, i got reminded of those times again.
How silly of us, like seriously.

Woke up at 8am, prepared and took the train to Aunt's house just to accompany my cousin for his review/checkup and stuffs. He's got two sets of Grandstand F1 tickets on hand, which he wanna sell it off! Some cookie monster blood sucker actually wants to buy the Sunday ones, which is also the final day at $50 per tickets! Terrible suckers! Each set's worth around $800+ Grandstand Tickets and you dare to quote your $50? Not shy at all.

Okay okay, keep cool.

Friendlies tomorrow and yet, i feel that we've got not enough players?
Ouch!

2009-09-24T02:52:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA ULTIMATE SHIT OKAY.

2009-09-24T01:28:00.001+08:00

GPA sucks, what else.

2009-09-22T23:36:00.003+08:00

It was definitely an impromptu decision. We were just walking pass the HSA building when i told my mum i'll go be a blood donor and off i went, while mum went for her physio. I dont know whats with me, but i'm always making impromptu decisions.

Its my virgin experience in blood donation! Kinda cool, and i forgot to take pictures to frighten tiff! Eh, cos i dont know where the nurse placed my bag.

Oh no matter what, we're getting our results tomorrow. Grace said that if school's nice, they'll post it like at 12am. REALLY MEH. I DONT THINK THEY'RE THAT NICE LEH.
ARGH, WE'RE ALL HAVING THE JITTERS NOW. I doubt i'll make it through. A pass will be nice enough though.

Okay pray hard!

2009-09-17T00:15:00.002+08:00

I'm currently taking mini bites, savouring each and every crumbs of my Singoalla which i bought in the afternoon at IKEA! HAHAHA, i know the name sounds cool okay.

Singoalla Singoalla.

Left home early to make an effort trip to the hospital to visit Alan cousin. Just when i was leaving home, i texted my mum to inform her. Anyway, she knew i was going out lah. But she still screamed at me and said i spoilt her plans. Like wth?!
She's always trying to create unnecessary trouble for everyone, doing funny things, and piss people LIKE ME off. I dont know what wrong with her seriously. Just because her assistant is not around to help her out today, she behaves like ants on fire. ARGH. I'm just too impatient for that yes.

So yeah, cousin is allowed to consume food now, thats what i heard from sis.

Off to meet the girls at Ikea for lunch and Queens for new boots! HAHA, they're trying to bargain their way through but didnt succeed of course.

Then off to the gym to meet Edmund for the fitness test and HAHA, the BLOODY FOOL, aka the security guard. He pinches my fats, did pumping, sit-ups and step-ups, test my blood pressure and etc. Was kinda fun actually.

Omg, i realise i'm talking nonsense now, i'm sorry ive got no pictures for you guys to see.
Argh.

2009-09-13T22:08:00.003+08:00

I'm currently very worried about my examination results. Grace kept reminding us that the releasing date is getting nearer. She'll chant "23 coming, 23 coming" like whenever i see her.

And the feeling kinda multiply whenever i blog hop to this certain blog.

This kind of feeling sucks much. I'm so afraid that im not able to pass my macroeconomics paper, and i've got to take the supp paper, which means there isnt much time left for me to study, which means, im so gonna be dead.

Or maybe i should try to start studying now since i know i wont be able to pass? Yes yes, i should.

Anyway, i tried on the O.P.I matte nail polishes today. It pretty awesome! Aww, would have gone for a manicure if not for.. but its okay!

And yes, for the whole of this vacation, no job at all! I feel much like a lazy slug who sucks in everything?
Shit. And im getting fatter and fatter each day. I gain weight as easy as 1 2 3. EVEN BREATHING MAKES ME GAIN WEIGHT!

Oh, and sexybabi, ily. HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA.