I think, i am never ever going to say i want to quit rugby.
I will just have that thought, and then shut up.
I dont wish to be called an attention seeker, you know.

But i really cant help but to feel depressed about it, sometimes.

Actually i think i'm quite pathetic.
I dont seem to have a real bff. All my friends are busy with their own work and school. And i'm left all alone. I hate to feel like this, and i am so afraid to know that i am forgotton, or being left out.

I know im thinking too much. But im really not. I guess, in my life of 20years, there are far too many people who abandoned me. Therefore im like that?


Im weak and sensitive. Thats me.